thur
chocs for me is like med for my heart
whenever the most unhappy times
once i ate a choc
it really makes me feel much better
choc is like telling me
'dun cry coz im sweet, i can help u to be happy'
saw ppl close to me very sad about something ,i also will get affected
so now im telling you tt too
hope this can help abit in yr mind
though not in yr condition :(
so i hope ur heart get well soon
compare the first i've known you
you became more sadden
and making me worried too
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
3:16:00 pm
forgot last thur
sophia made cheescake for me and j
woohoo
so happy
hehe
tue sick as usual
wed went Funan to collect my old laptop
but end up buying new laptop and cost me 999
acer(this brand i always won't think of)
that promoter guy very good
he gave me free upgrate to 2GB Ram
and 8GB thumbdrive
is also we buggain la.
and through all this i noe about laptop specs more already
really thanks sophai and j helping me and acc me
THE LAPTOP EVERYTHING DAMM HEAVY!
omg
we 2 carry one
and i damm hungry so bus hm :)
mummy back hm
im soooo happy :)
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:59:00 pm
saw what you say
is really hurting
is like
i do not know how to help you
bang bu dao mang is seriously very sad
when u said ' i still think u dun understand im in what kind of situation'
my heart was like torn apart
what is this?
suspect the care and concern i gave u?
i felt tt im an idiot
so ignorance
.......
i just hope tt i can help out something
anything
just tell me more
its ok to be like naggy
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:44:00 am
cough cough cough
i cant get into slp or slp half way wake up and cough again
its been 4 days
but still i still have the energy to stay up for lessons and play with classmates
just tt when not playing i seems to be more tired
tts miracles
no appetite
force myself to eat recently
one of the day(i think thur) i vomit out all my horfun
today ate half bowl of dumpling noodles
whats wrong?
omg
lifes is getting tougher for me?
stressed?
i duno
tts the problem
people are telling me not to think too much
pls dun say tt
tt sentence really hurt me sooo much
soo much
u duno what i felt and gone through everynight
tt unbearable feeling...
i hope my heart can get well soon!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:33:00 am
tian ah!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
9:40:00 pm
23.10.2010
sat
wake early in the morning
omg
damm tired
reached hm 3.30 ytd
met hongging and debbie and work tgt again
hehe
work abit sian
but still ok
gt babies
haha
end of work SUPPER TIME!
boss drive us to ECP to eat seafood feast
clayfish,saltedeggCrab,chilliCrab,Heipo,hotplateToufu,etc
omg we were sooo full!
hahaha
and thanks to the beer ytd and seafood
my voice is totally becoming a man
24.10.2010
sun
last day of work
today was totally dazing
not slack
but just thinking alot of things
went to IT show
debbie bought 89 samsung harddisk
and see see see
ate alot of things!!
takoyaki,meesua,portugiseeggtart,subway,etc!
haha
train back home.
we 2 like typing hp halfway staring at space and open our mouth big big
wats wrong with us
hahaha at the same time somemore
maybe too tired ba
ok
tmro will be a brand new day
monday
reached at tp too early
suddenly have this feelings
'where can i go? every place like not belongs to me'
random
was very sick
and weak
how i wish somebody can carry me home after work
HONGGING korkor came to look for me!
touched~~
hehe
alone again
train back hm
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:06:00 am
22.10.2010
friday
after tt damm it programming
went to expo to work
wa
is like kinda happy coz BABY FAARE
this job is tough
but i like
so many married couples newly pregnant babies
i feel so blessed
is influencial k
their expressions was like wow
how i wish i could took down
hopefully i can be one of them
will i have this type of image to someone else?
will the day come?
is like so far away
my love life was always a distance
duno y
ok
crap
hmm
train home alone
doesnt really like
somemore
is such a long distance
who knows how i felt
tt kind of emptyness
tt kind of insecure
how i wish i can cross the road and banged by a car
btw who really cares
nobody
meanwhile HONGGING called me
asking wanna go pub!
i was like OH YES!
den i nv think anything and went back to met him with anne and caiyun
IS AT ANN SIANG HILL there
the place is siwei brought us there last time
pub name tocca me
den ordderd beer
play some games and it was a public ktv
Im damm high hahaha
woohoo!!
feeling very down in fact
hope i can drunck like last time
totally brain dead
no need to think anything
TYPSY
and we walk to Play club
and is gay night
i was like OMFG
i was totally shocked
many gaysssssss
NICE LOOKING WITH SO HANDSOME GAYSSS
and thanks hongging kor kor protect me
den cab hm.
how i wish i dun go home.
bye
vibrant night
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:51:00 pm
18.10.2010
Last mon started sch
infact tue
went back to sch to look for sophia coz she so lonely
den went to jurong imm boonlay
jurong shopping centre
looking for presents
eat at lai lai beef noodle restaurant at jurong shopping centre
last time we one family use to eat at bugis
always
yeap
ok back here
kns super irritating
bad dinner
fed up
ok
crap
end up bought a maxi dress:)
19.10.2010
start sch and im late
omg so rushed
and SAW ANDREW IN CLASS
he same class wih me
is like finally la
ok nice starrt
but was super worry about my laptop etc
hai
seriously hope god can help me
or who want give me FREE laptop
den went meeting with zhikai carrine tingleong
wed
went to sophia house after sch
i don't wish to go back hm
saw baby!!
omg
i was like melted!
haha
i cant do anything to make baby laugh
OMG
i cant be a good mother next time
hahaha
jia bu chu qu le!!!
who want me who want me ?hahaaha
btw
very gladful to have a dinner in sophia hse
damm warming
very touched
speechless
the best meal ever outside
zhong yu you jia de gan jue
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:39:00 pm
微笑说
彻底的放弃
说真的
装开心比之前不开心的时候来得更难过
我好想大声地叫出来
好想大声地哭出来
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:38:00 pm
放心,有一天我会消失的
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:56:00 am
ARHHHH
我不知道是不是爱上你了
我很乱
希望你可表示一些什么
让我的心知道你的存在
也让我知道你的心有没有我的存在
你好像退缩了
当你越来越靠近我
你的心好像离我越来越远
你已经不传简讯给我了
我其实一直很期待你的简讯
我希望你有什么事情可以跟我说
可以来找我
偶尔吃吃饭
偶尔打电话给我
我很想关心你
很想找你
很想跟你出去
很想跟你分享我的喜怒哀乐
很希望你可以再勇敢一点
鼓起你的勇气
但是
因为你对朋友比对我来的重要
我没有安全感
如果这只是我的一厢情愿
我会选择放手
因为
爱情对我来说是致命伤
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:01:00 pm
对不起,我的爱好像不勇敢了。
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:50:00 am
15.10.10
fri
no work!
finally rest!
bye spore!
went to msia
ate my favourite raw egg with choc snowice
and my ipoh horfun!
alot of place changes
nostalgic yet unfamiliar
one of the happiest day this year !
i wun forget
night came
disappointed
emptyness came again
silent
dragged
hai
wu nai
bye
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:04:00 am
09.10.10
work work 1st day at shop:)
a wulu shop ahaha
save up! must save up!
10.10.10
happy night!
not empty anymore!
11.10.10
work!
craving for food omg
like 10 years nv eat!
12.10.10
work!
1st time wear heels for SOOOO LONG
one whole day!
is like miracles
my new heels :) happy
ate subwayyyy
dennnn
elissa came and look for me and help me bought yami yoghurt
no more natural flavor with granola:(
and tried pineapple with mixed nuts
i was like 'oh god'
haha but gt elissa aixin and she treat me in the end!
happy:)
den went to look for shushan at imm after elissa gone to meet her friends
have fun and i cant stop laughing when i saw shushan!
hahahahaha
13.10.10
work!
ate subway meatball marinated OMG
i was like in heaven ~~
hehe
and bought 3 subway cookies damm nice
especially their double chocs and oatmeal raisins
evening
zhikai and carrine came
to discuss bout mco stuff
and im so troubled about choosing colours of my rose ring!
hahahaha
after work
went to suntex
finally bought my yami yoghurt natural with granola!
hehe
sneak in aston
nice environment
discuss discuss
nxt
we was laughing at some holy thing
for 1 hour la.
hahahahahahahaha
train down home
and shushan bought my oat bun for me
she waited for 1 h++
i was so touched
and so guilty
so sry darling!!!
i'll repay u by be nice to u more k
i wun hit u
i wun scold u
i wun shout at u okok?
hehe
14.10.10
work!
made lots of OL frens
i felt old
and near to my twenties
omg
they were like 'nxt time i ask u out for dinner or lunch'
i was stunt
hahahaha
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:54:00 am
9 oct
sat
evening went down to town with zhikai
very hungry so we ate xiaobawang
crispychicken meesua herbalteaegg crispyfish milktea!
den we like went around to look for food but actually main thing is to look for albums!
omg
sen we went to Royce choc shop
was like 'wow'
when to taka awhile etc
den went back to eat almond sesame snowice
haha!
nxt we went to buy awfully chocs!
omg nice
but too full already
walk walkwalk
went to orchard central mos burger to buymy clam chowder!
and he bought the orange soup thing
OMG
ate alot hahaha
and nv even buy tt album
NICE CHAT DUDE!
always wanna say a thank you to you
coz u always tolerate my anger
tolerate my lameness
tolerate my unreasonable
tolaerate my troubles
and lastly always send me home!
you qing wan sui!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:28:00 am
Hi
those who are reading my blog
thanks for all the comments and encouragement you gave me
thanks for everything
i get back to my feet
fang xin!!
:)
i will laugh like nobody business
i will make fun of you like nobody business too!!
hiakhiak
and im not gg to cry anymore
like a babies
i have hope
i have aim
i have goals in my life
i wan to go uni
uni uni uni
ok
let everything bygone be bygone
i will not live like last sem
like a dead corpse
JUST BECAUSE I LIVED ONCE!
right?
i will live the one i use to be
laugh smile crazy like an idiot hahaha
and who bully me and my fren i will take charge of everything
scold curse swear tt person to hell!
okok
:)
can ask me out for dinner everything :)
im still tt fren always by yr side!
APPLE IS BACK
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:36:00 pm
get to upset when i put too much emotion in.need time to heal.but currently still burst out into tears.thats weird huh?even have precautions
y ppl ask y?y do ppl nit a reasons and benefits to do things?y not wholeheartly?y?YYYYY?i hate the world with reasons.stupid reasonsSSSS
emotion came.angry disappoint sad.wonder y i started this?just bcoz i have no reasons doesnt mean whatever.ohgod!can u create only babies?
ni de xin zai na li?
bian le.wo bu zhi dao.i lost what i've lost.im very satisfied wat i have wat i known wat i love bt everytime u will just lose wat u maintain
den i rather live myself.alone.dont love anyone.no need anyone to love me.
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:32:00 am
busying bout mco stuff from this week
and i ouch mco for around 2 months.
something changed
and im kinda sad
i was sending some details to seng fong
he said:im not cmc liao
im abit affected
coz even from wgsco
we use to send the details to those who are very gd with us and all these are cmcs
this sentence like strike me
and i find tt ivy laykuen all this use to be a very active player and active cmc is not there
the very first starts from debbie
tt one i seriously cha yi dian cant take it
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:27:00 am
6 oct
time went pass too fast and i doesnt even notice tt
went out with my beloved sister shushan and biyu
i waited for 1.30hrs!!
i hate ppl late seriously
but valid reasons!
haha
ate pepperlunch!!
den we went kbox!
sing sing sing
i think im the only person who sing
biyu singing improve alot!!!!shushan also not bad!
den we train down to ph
just to slack
have a nice chat with them
i dun feel like dancing
bad mood after went in ph
maybe im ready to annouce
maybe im not
it so hard to say tt sentence
the key word
i just could not spit it through my mouth.
abit typsy
and thank god with my 2 sis there!
hope to go out with them more often!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:43:00 am
arhhH!
u know how much i miss u !
i really cant live without you
can just let me die
its getting tougher and tougher everyday when it passed by
if can
i dont wish to come back anymore
everyone is leaving me
i felt so insecure
i totally cant breath
is breathless
totally breathless
SUFFOCATING
JUST LET ME DIE DIE DIE
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:57:00 pm
02.10.2010
saturday
finally outing with elissa and gerald
was late so sry la
went to @scape
there was really nth to shop
and bought the yougurt drink from once upon a milk shake recomment from hongging
the rum and raisin was damm nice la
gerald bought (i forgt) elissa bought strawberry
then we walk back to The Cathay aston to have our dinner
we were shock coz the queue was damm long
we waited from 6 to 8.
chitchat and was laughing a pri small boy .he put salt instead of pepper and elissa burst out laughing!
ahaaha
while sending to elissa to MRT station
we went to take neo print!
19 yrs old neoprint
was like 'omg wat are we doinh'
haahah
then me and gerald walk all the way to bugis to buy KOI!
was craving for CARAMEL MILK TEA
another long queue
then
train back to wdlds
heading to WATERFRONT!
waterfront view is the place i always wants to go this year!
waaaaa
great chat with gerald and went to see saw
hahaha
bought icecream
like a kids sia
looked at the time and is 1.30am!
walked a long long way back!
was happy today coz i finally went to the place that i can relax!
hope to go
marina barage
henderson bridge
east coast park
sentosa
etc etc!
those nice placid views.
wei shen me bian le?
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:41:00 pm
why now i dun need u and u are by my side?
what a time
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
4:30:00 pm
heavy metal heavy piano heavy electric guitar heavy lights
is toatally awesome!
ok awaiting for wed night night night!!
FINALLY
ladies night on air!!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:24:00 pm
insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia
could u just f* away
so damm it
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:42:00 pm
the sunset shone brightly on my face
i felt alive
....
was like hinting me to wake up
and live like the past
....
jogging give positive message!
i think tmro my leg will like half dead
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:49:00 am
everyone is like in relationship!!
so happy!
congrats debbie with alson
congrats joslin with keefe
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:45:00 am
ok i no more emo k!
long time nv update my schedule omg
i totally duno where to start
arhh rmbed
16.08.2010- cycling with soocheng zhikai carrine at east coast park.zhonghua came after tt and we ate carls jr!we were totally wore out! butt pain etc!
21.08.2010-celebrate hongging korkor 22 birthday.with debbie jessly bkian soocheng anne shini jasmine gerald at wdld centre mac.was fun and relax
21.08.2010-went to watch alumni wgsband concert at rp with sc and sengfong.TOOK ALOT OF NICE PHOTOS!walked hm with sengfong and had a nice chat!!
27.08.2010- went timbre @ old school with sisters! geri angie siewyi elissa shushan
27.08.2010- YikHang farewell.WISH YOU ALL THE BEST YIKHANG!!
31.08.2010-01.09.2010-exams!!cant go back for teachers day and ms chee retirement :( .
went to town alone to look for Mr Low teachers day present :(
02.09.2010-after work and acc siwei to greatworld for his setup.den looked for sophia at expo.!WHOLE DAY NV EAT!and ate marinasquare subway after tt
03.09.2010-after work went to Victoria jc for j's performance with sophia.NICE!and i've changed my hp!
04.09.2010-went to ELVA WOW concert with sophia!!omg nice nice!was so agitated when she sang my fav song!!and thanks to hongging kor kor for the ticket.
21.09.2010-went to lau pat sa after work with jethro nana tom!damm shag but great!celebrate our last day of work taxi hm and cost us a bomb! and car sickssssssss
23.08.2010- 21.09.2010 -started my mooncake job
22.09.2010-HAPPY MID-AUTUME FESTIVAL!i still rmb how i celebrate it every year.and time went so fast tt it just like happen to celebrate mid-autume festival ytd only and now is another years time.went to cut hair again
23.09.2010-went out and it just rain rain rain.not with the plans damm it.but it was still a great trip coz we've talked alot!thanks for the rides and acc me to repairr my laptop!
24.09.2010-went to have a lunch with jonathan.great great chat.no worries k.me will suport u all the way!JY! emo started
25.09.2010 -shopping with mummy!!FINALY!bought some stuff opps no choice la~
27.09.2010-went back to TANGS orchard to see auntie with jethro and nana.and took a long long ride coz the bus spoiled to amk.bought KOI!!!yippy!
27.09.2010-meet shushan to chitchat.diggingour hearts out too.GREAT BEST GALFREN!muacks
29.09.2010- my house getting more and more empty
29.09.2010- went to have dinner with zhikai! but ps diarrhoea man cant eat!but thanks for the drinks.
29.09.2010- siwei drive and pick me sophia to tampanies ikea!! great and 'exciting' rides which cause me have severely motion sick.and also sophia's nice direction thanks huh!den pick joelynne up to and went to thomson road to have our rochor tau hui.nice supper filled with laugthers.seriously must thanks to siwei coz he very tired in the end!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:30:00 am