nv go tournamet ytd
my mood is bad
today was late for my maths common test paper
dun feel anything tt i usually do
no gan chiong
no nervous
nth
no mood totally no mood
took cab and cost me a bomb
ok must start to eat lesser
ok studying now for tmro paper
and im like spending 3 hrs for studying 1 chpt
5 more to go....
suddenly this question came out of my mine
Do you want to quit frisbee?
and some memories flashes to my mind
bout destiny
-my mum bring us to a man who noe how to see future
he said wat will us be when we grow up
said we will be married
etc
-last year when having chinese lesson for o level
tt teacher noe how to read palms and read words which can show your characters
wat he said to me i've forgotten
-i read so much bout horoscope
tot of bkian said tt she also have the same situation as me
and she did quit
she state her reason
:'is how ppl treats you make you wanted to quit'
at first i always tot i wanted to quit bcoz i cant tahan of the training etc
but now i've knew it
reality
and how ppl treats you
wat i wanted to say is bout fate destiny
wat path will i have
if somebody told me tt
and i knew bout it
will i choose the same thing?
i think i will?
bcoz its destiny?
even u said u wun
something will force u to do so
eg if somebody told me i will quit frisbee
i will say 'ok i wun quit'
but when how ppl treats you or any situation makes you so miserable
its time and even you already said tt u wun
recently im lose of directions
uni starting walking further and further away from me
means my tem goal is leaving me soon
can few tt the period of times when im lose of choices
im lose of directions
lose of life
lose of meaningless
lose of motivation is coming back soon
and tingleong said the way i solve my probs
is running away from the fact
maybe tts true?
i duno
i dun wanna think about it
yup u see im running again
suddenly browsing through mco ppl blogs
and saw one blog which made me feel so down to earth
tt is ivy's blog
farah contact with her!
im so sad
coz she nv contaact me again
felt apart
and also sc's blog
i nv realise she have sprain her leg when 1 of the reharsal of VOH!
nobody have told me bout it
bkian n yvonne sent her hm
and actually im should be the one there
is my fault
yet i said'nobody told me about it'
i duno
i only felt i should do something
yet is late
many ppl said my one prob is outcast ppl
ps frens
i,i
i jus want to say
im sry guys
i jus need lavender bottles
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
5:34:00 pm