just cannot sleep recently
lots of thoughts inside my mind
feeling restless
feeling empty
lost
lost the fun and interesting of life
gain the feeling of meaningless
lost the way i am
lost the way i had
no direction
no goals
no concentration
have many friends
but none understand
none give a real help when needed
none really care
none none none
finding concentrations
studies
activities
games
tt i doesn't usually do it
and now
became part of my life
but still
empty
cannot explain it
who really want to listen?
what i want to say
being forgotten
i wun repeat twice
none audience
none speech
last time
i use to determine
but now
choose not to
what for??
what the point??
wanted to feel the soar
wanted to dance
wnted to soar in the sky
wanted to dance with the sky
wanted to choose the kinds of character in my life
a piano
a stage
an audience
endless sky
deep blue sea
placid view
peaceful life
tt would be great
no war
no mask
no rush
no hush
no comments
no no everything...
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
4:11:00 am
hong kong cantonese speaking english subtittle
a very very touching movie:
story goes like this
a guy who is blind and dumb met this nurse
this nurse always take care of him
so this guy gradually like her
but one day he had an accident
and he went to heaven
he beg and beg to live on and wish to see her face
the god gave him a chance to live
but condition is
he cannot say out who he is of his previous identity
and no one will recognise him bcoz he is on other people body
and only give him 5 days to live
he did his best to make the nurse happy
and did his best to reveal......
This is the website:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X-_K_pch2c&feature=related
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
10:39:00 pm
HONGGING 21ST BIRTHDAY CHALET 23.08.09 SUNDAY :

Birthday boy:

me debbie:
reena debbie me, debbie wanto eat my mashmalo!!


MSLco peeps

Mco tanbo cellobass percussion:
Mco xuanyue windwood:

Presents for hongging!

munhui me 
trying all kinds of pose haha:
no one wants to take photo with melvin:
JUMP SHOT:

YEA

roar

NICE PICS!!
MORE PICS TO UPLOAD!!
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:01:00 am
ok nowaday study study study
in nyp in rp
night eat pasa malam
in love with RAMLI BURGER
in love in PLANTS AGAINST ZOMBIES(a game)
life getting boring??
no mood to study
monday back from hongging 21st birthday
den go programming exams
my dear joelynne n sophia saw me wear slipper
quickly bought a bandange for me to pretend tt im hurt
coz EXAMS IN HALL!!
so exagerate!!
haha like pig trotter
ite its nth
and
there are 100++ ppl wearing slipper i think
damm funny
waiting for the chalet pics to upload!!
i just want to be myself
i just...
miss the feeling on the planes
miss the feeling of leaving to other countries with a kind of goodbye mindset
miss that kind of freedom of life
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:48:00 am
Saturday
a very fed up day
went mco in d morning
plan after mco go rp library study
den help honggin the chalet bbq stuff
but nit to find d box so went daiso at PS
ite dun have
stomache
omgg stomach not feeling well again
went all the gift shop to find
den one shop tell me to go another branch amk
waste my time
so went back ite TAKE WRONG TRAIN
so finally reach amk
bought tt
den everything was in a mess after tt
peiqi promised me can help me keep things ite cant help me
what d prob with u peiqi??
why nowadays like so frastrated
so self-centered
things tt had decided turns out to be so negative
do you think of what others feel??
SUAN LE
hongging frens hse cant put all d bbq stuff
so approach to me
kana scold scold scold by mummy
reject reject reject by frens
went back to rp and is 4.45
met hg at 5
so walk back cwp again
what d hell
felt so so down n helpless
like theres nobody in the world
only me the one who busy here n there
wats d point??
only care yrself
your grades
your test
what bout me??
what frens are for
went sheng shiong with debbie n hg
hg frens all back out their promises
debbie sick still help leh
jus text a msg and say
'ohh,forgot tt i have something on today so cant help u'
'sorry'
you think is reponsible??
so how
jus throw to other ppl?
and yes
did threw to other ppl
i feel like killing ppl
bought alot of bbq stuff
thanks hg for the oreos!!
den went wdld centre hawker centre buy hor fun
debbie bought fried mee tak bak
omg her foot bleed!!
and the blood really look like red ink
so im like asking her 'is this real blood or paint'
haha she say she shocked too coz the blood so red n fresh n many
ok stop
next we share fried kway tiao!!
so yummy
hg eat qing tang
FINALLY bought my grey jeans
feeling better now
haha
so went hm to put all d bbq stuff
den nit to rust to rp again
taxi down there
faster complete what we nit to complete
ite still nv study anything
ok hope tt tmro everything went smoothly!!
no obstacles
god bless hg n me too
we both too unlucky nowadays
god,you need to help us coz you have neglated us too much nowadays
dun provoke me
i can be kind
i can be evil too
o
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
1:31:00 am
went orchard and was raining heavily!!
shop here n there
really no mood for shopping nowadays
feeling restless
bought a white choc conflakes buiscuits
damm yummy !!at paragon basement
the shop call Gastomonia....(i forgt)
can go there n take a look
saw my pri sch teacher whom i rmb her birthday same as mine!!
she still looks pretty as b4
she cant recognize me...
den went back rp to study
sengfong soocheng zhikai was there
do some readings and sc sf went hm
chit chat and find song
thanks to zhi kai i found tt songs and learnt some animal creatures thing!!
went pasa malam or gosh so oily but once a few months so bought some things to eat
chit chat chit chat den bus to hm
Gastomonia shop at paragon:

Thursday
study with joelynne n sophia in sch
den went back wgsco with peiqi
d junior is much more obedient than b4
teacher in-charge keep changing
new faces appears
dun which one is tem or permanent
ok den we walk to rp tomeet zhikai!!
bought waffle on d way back coz very hungry
and pq tell me bout 命中注定我爱你 scenaro
wow met zichang on the way
FINALLY reached
we speed for half n hour!
met soocheng heez
PASAM MALAM open already!!
reached hm n ate half tube of ice cream!!
this brand is Dreyer's,cookies n ceam
nicest ice-cream forever!!!:<br>

THIS handsome taiwanese actor call 赵又廷!!he is damm charming
currently acting in <痞子英雄> must watch must watch!!:


if i cannot tolerate
i'll choose to let go and give up
i won't keep back someone who is not worth it
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
2:39:00 am
studying at RP library now
their environment is super gd
gt ppl playing piano
likes guy playing piano
damm charming
i bring $6 today only
thanks for zhikai i spent all my 6 bucks on starbucks!!
sc came jus now but she only stay for 30 mins i think
jiayou o level ppl!!!
dun give up keep gg
the world is not spining only for u
so u must move on on and on
study week
Happy Birthday HongGing n ZiKai!!!



Tuesday
went wdld RLibstudy with zhikai beekian tingleong soocheng geraldstarting using zhikai to find songs MTV and even lip tutorial sessionomgg hahaserious timewent food court after study to eat our dinnerhey 1st time say eng jokes u noetheres a kids watching 'Friends' dramaand his mother walk passhe said:haiya,i miss one of my episode!damm funny lothanks to u joelynne!!for recommanding this jokecool down guys


Monday
at CCK
black sesame mango n red bean green tea snow ice!!
Sunday
study at RP
my most artistic pics haha
i like the afternoon sun lights tt shone on the objects
look so dazing





everyday of us is making choices
choices are easy n difficult to decide
what if we do not have any choices?
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
7:44:00 pm
slacked the whole whole day
i must save money
poorpoorpoor
went to CCK with tingleong n zhikai
thanks for the acc!!
ate bibimbah at kobashaya c...
nice!!
den ate snow ice
nice!!
cant post pics
so nxt time den see ba
likes to see the big city with people walking by
likes to see people smiling
likes to see happiness written on people face
likes to look for the happiness
likes wedding
likes newborn babies
likes hugs and kisses
likes to have all the happiness that came from the heaven
likes to have it all happened in this world
Sunday
meet peiqi soocheng to go study
went to RP n i sleep more than i study
no mood study eh
we are VERY hungry at 6
so walk bck to cwp
on the way
we chase n play
saw the real smile from sc n pq
it will stay in my memory forever
ate at foodcourt n went NLB to study
really no mood
went to look for chocolate books!!
look so Damm DELICIOUS
everyone said this
friends are always the one who help you when you in need
and
they are also the ones who don't notice
fake fake fake
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
10:50:00 pm
picture of the day:
saw their happiness? feel their happiness?
play frisbee with ting leong zhi kai aloysius
went to stadium field to play ite kana chase
so went to the big patch of grassland outside sports hall
very fun!!!
throw far far to sabo here n there
haha!!
they throw until very funny
你说着
我听着
像刀子划的
隐隐痛着
心痛了死了
回不去了
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
12:15:00 am
Friday
Early in the morning wake up
rush my case study n study my exam
headache come back
means stress now
FINALLY exam over
do things until late evening
play frisbee coz bb cancelled
sadden...
ok at least played frisbee
chocolicious dreams
Thursday
study for friday test we cant figure out many questions
not in study mood
we invite Hongging lao shi and teach us
THanks a million times!
we gt learn things from u
found my admin card!!
缞神 wan to move away from me lo!!
sorry geri cant acc to watch G.I. with u
Wednesday
waiting for the time to go by....
jump jump JUMP
lets JUMP



hate people saying sian when they with anybodyyeahnobody said happy to be with meonly a person doesbutgods always take my most precious things away
took away the feeling
took away the persontook away my happinessbut always never take away my disappontment
2/4/1998 - 2/3/2010
Eternity love
11:32:00 pm