flying with happiness

2011-08-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

记忆不要再来了。

2011-08-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

Ya, am back to my blog again,

I'm walking backwards now,

to do what i usually did,

to go where i usually went,

to be whom i usually am
and

of course

stop doing what i stress of.

2011-08-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

Hi mimi,

yes miss you almost everyday,

the hug

the look

everything

miss me kay

love u eternity.

2011-07-25T10:36:00.001+08:00

Im really miss the old times, this year changed alot

i can't explain verbally

i only can stand at my own placement

the feeling is so terrible

i miss everyone

the laughters that we use to have

the looks and expression we use to be

this year seems eveything slow down

even our smile and the efforts that we put in last time

so what all these for?

i dont know

and

dont wish to know

wheres our use to be?

2011-04-10T23:48:00.002+08:00

ITS TIME

2011-03-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes i hate myself so much.

why you gone? and took all my directions away? and nothing seems for me to focus? why? when my life is full of perfections and goals..

i lose my pace for such a long time....

i need to cry hard. real hard and real loud.

everytime i say life life life,bt wat i got in e end is nothing,n people live their life better than me when they say no life.contradicting

i scold people saying don't tell me what to do, but actually you should slap me and break me into half

sometimes i really wanted to let go everything, i know i'm timid. i'm not bold enough to decide. i'm just nothing.

don't know clueless aimlessly no goal , so whats now? die better?

i'm just......nothing. end up nothing in my hand..

and why i always hope is you and it wasn't you to keep me accompany?

2011-03-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

好像离开这国度

姐姐要去美国了

我不可以去！

看怎么样

如果受不了

我就不顾一切了。。。

2011-03-20T08:12:00.000+08:00

I didn't know anything

your new house

and i think you are having some house warming and you din't even invite me

secondly you have a race for DB

you could have tell me

disappointment

你好吗？快乐吗？当你闭上眼，什么感觉？

2011-03-19T00:41:00.001+08:00

#threewordstoliveby:

I'll give up

i'll let go

2011-03-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

#threewordstoliveby: All By Myself

-Celine Dion

2011-03-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

i don't wish to know anything.just shut my eyes my ear.

at first i saw this,telling myself its ok.

but now i saw that is really very angry:/

2011-03-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

its ok quan wei let it go.

the world become even more beautiful than anything else

remember the feeling of walking at the long streets without anyone

without any rush

just your own pace

just your mind there

and eveything will be once beautiful and peaceful again

2011-03-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

you filled all my heart

seriously

but

i know its impossible?

and i know your birthday coming

i will surely not the one who celebrate birthday with you

just forget it

i feel like confronting you

whenever i tell myself not to message you

i did it

but

useless

because

whenever i wish to ask alot of things from you

i never ask

2011-03-13T00:18:00.001+08:00

am i stress?

i don't know

i've been talking to myself / my mum/ sis while i'm sleeping

and i don't even know it

my mum said that: i was talking about 'glove..glove..must put it on'

omg

and i was damm nervous on sunday night to go attachment on monday

and i was singing in the middle of the night

mum and sis was totally shocked by me

worse is i don't even know that

and somemore my eyes is open and like a normal me

this is never been happen to me before

hmm

let me think

maybe a few times

but i know what am i talking

and who am i talking to

this time round really K.O. by myself

hope next week won't happen to me like this

one part of amazement

the power of feeling

i was twittering about what i feel for this first few day of attachment

and hongging whatsapp me

asking me:'am i ok?i sounded not ok in twitter'

i was very confident to tell him that i'm alright
because i never twit about things i'm sad with
or i don;t feel sad at all

but thinking of myself mumbering in the middle of the night

i think i'm stress

i think i'm not ok

because when stress strikes me

many weird symtoms will happen to me

kor kor get to know me more and more

2011-03-09T22:55:00.001+08:00

my mind just cannot stop stop stop thinking thinking and thinking

cannot shake it away !

damm it !

2011-03-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

IAP started from this week 7th march 2011 monday

to 28th may Sat infact is 27th may Fri

and today is the 3rd day

nice colleague :supervisor etc

nice pay :$635/month

nice ot :1.5 times

nice leave :3months with 3days mc

nice extra :3 days of holiday because it is public holiday

nice journey distance :20 minutes

especially i like company who have a cafeteria with mircrowave and boil water dispenser

hope to get more things to do

and i brought my lunch box today

so happy!!

2011-03-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

WHY!

i should change have path !!

i want to go America on march!!!

but i got IAP !

FML LA!

2011-03-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

I've been damm so sad

clueless

i'm trying to give up

but i think the more i give up the more deeper i've fallen to

ARH!

are we really from different world?

i want to prove that it wasn't

but you seems not to care anymore...

2011-02-25T01:31:00.001+08:00

oh god give me some break man!

2011-02-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

什么都显得做作

2011-02-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

昨天今天

紧张和压力的时刻

没人能理解吧

我只希望老天能帮帮我度过到星期一

2011-02-23T19:23:00.001+08:00

my 1st post haha! -->>

is a red and fresh but yet rotten;not a gal not yet a woman

February 16, 2009 at 12:39am

2011-02-23T13:53:00.001+08:00

这近几个礼拜

有一只小花猫

不停地在我家门口打转

它本来是向我们要吃的

但后来

我们其中一位家里成员一踏出门口，

它就会跑向我们

跟我们撒娇

就算是喂饱了它

他还是会不停地罕我们亲热

一直跟着我们的脚步

但

逼不得已得推开它

昨天妈妈说了一句话：它真的想要一个家。

reality whack real hard on my head

2011-02-22T15:52:00.002+08:00

NOW MOOD IS SUPER DOWN TO THE EARTH

I SCARE IF I SAY OUT I WILL CRY

PEOPLE GIVE DISAPPOINTMENT FACES

I CANT SMILE NOW

I DON'T KNOW WHY

MAYBE I KNOW WHY

IM VERY INDECISIVE NOW

HAI....

WALKING ALONG THE PATHWAY

LIFT UP MY HEAVY HEAD

RAIN WAS DRIZZLING UNDER THE BRIGHT SUN

IT WAS DAZZLING

WILL I SEE RAINBOW?

WHO KNOWS?

2011-02-21T17:55:00.001+08:00

Finally tidied up my messy study table

gonna chiong now!

Thong Quan Wei you must go uni k!

2011-02-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

2rd march

the scariest date of all

hug me

hold me

tight

im so scare

the fear is getting more and more from 11 feb

2011-02-21T11:53:00.000+08:00

他妈的

皇太后

我真的很希望你可以快点死了算了

这么的计较

这么的自以为是

这么的记仇

又不听人家的解释

真希望你快点死掉

2011-02-19T23:37:00.004+08:00

went back wgs for reuion lunch

for the 1st time

with shini xinen and soocheng

wow saw so so many seniors

like those im in sec 1 and they are sec 5

ahahah! omg la

had buffet and may photos taking sessions!

next went to soocheng house

initially we plan to go Fcc and we walk until cwp from sec sch

but end up we take bus to sc house

and is damm tiring and hot

soocheng and i just ly on the bed and slept for 1h+

aww so sweet la! haha

1st time neh!

i love this!

should sleep more k!

next walk all the way back to like near sec school lo

coz we will be having steamboat at caiyun house

so got me beekian sengfong gerald anne melvin junwei hongging debbie

and jessly came later

we had fun!

nxt have a small mini birthday surprise for gerald!

his 20th birthday

hehe and take photos etc

12am already
walk home with gerald and debbie

i love this kind of peace and slow pace

and i always love walking

because i can see more things

freshen up my mind

and make my life easier

haha

ok tired

will upload pics on fb

JY FOR TMRO!

Aww saw my 2 ex today

they looking good :D

2011-02-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

他妈的

心情又不好了

我也好想跟你拍一张照片

2011-02-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

你是我的永远

2011-02-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

惨了

悲伤又来了

不想听任何电话简讯。

去跑步

BYE!

2011-02-17T00:24:00.001+08:00

Why everything clash this year?

Jan went Dubai

March need to go america but i have attachment

June need to go Hongkong but i have Suzhou attachment

OH MY GOD!

2011-02-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

hai i cannot post ANY pictures because my album memory is full

2011-02-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

咳！一言难尽啊！

我不知怎么抹去。

真希望可以醉一下，用醉的角度来看这世界，也许，这样比较漂亮一些。

2011-02-15T23:26:00.001+08:00

人生为什么这么微不足道？

为什么这么地渺小？

2011-02-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

有时找到了，但还是会想着后面会不会有更好的。

心情好乱，很多的不确定。

2011-02-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

我的心现在很糟糕。

2011-02-14T21:39:00.001+08:00

Woke up with my eyes filled with tears

felt damm sad and depressed

i dream something about my house

and something happened

that something is like a disasters

maybe Tsunami?

maybe totnado?

and i keep on insist of wanting to keep all the memories album.

which contain mimi

and alot of others.

and i remember i said this inside my dream : mimi just gone ,and this happened to us, why?

this dream is like wanting to tell me something

hinting me

maybe i ran away from some problems again

i don't want to think what is it hinting me about

ok stopped

BYE

GO JOG!

ps: maybe is the memories that i want to hold on to

2011-02-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

14.06.2010 11:59:50

our 1st chat started.

i don't know whether you still waiting for the answer or forget?

haha

i chose silent

2011-02-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

you know?

went to funan to retrieve my data

one is mimi memories

another one is your memories.

and now i'm reading it

abit scare to lose it

i don't know you keep or not

but i still love to chat with you

BUT

all these are 'memories'

and now i feel so regretted what i did.

2011-02-14T00:57:00.000+08:00

Happy valentine day

2011-02-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

hai i cannot post ANY pictures because my album memory is full

2011-02-12T23:40:00.012+08:00

Went Caryn house Bainian

with yanney shikin shiyun sophia

met at Aljunied

previous should meet sophia 11.45 at yck

end up let her wait for 45mins

and i planned to go mco 1st

i slept late and planned to go jog

end up never wake up

hahah!

ok then

WE HAVE STEAMBOAT!

naise

im damm hungry too

had lots of fun!

'carpet''spongebob'-> had fun teasing it

actually its PIG SKIN!

we all don't know la

so in the end

the HALALS put down their spoon and chopsticks

and we actually gonna finish.

we play WII!

we play guitar hero!

damm fun!

hahahaa

and fail fail fail

end up we have 100%!

damm happy

hehe

went home and got change to go for cny mcc appreciation dinner at MCC

walk all the way to custom

ehehe

and had 8 course meal

their performance like ge tai

omg!

ok then walk back with wahidah jiaqi and zhikai

tmro working

duh- JIAYOU!

2011-02-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

5.1152km today

met soocheng and jian hao

2011-02-08T22:01:00.001+08:00

ran 5.8 km today :( + alot of walking

with zhikai tingleong

2011-02-08T15:46:00.001+08:00

I know i like you so much

but i just did nothing

2011-02-08T01:13:00.001+08:00

Target : lose weight

get a boyfriend before 21years old

2011-02-08T01:07:00.002+08:00

do i have the chance?

should i let go or go for it ?

im really clueless

can you just tell me straight away?

i hate this kind of unknown

2011-02-07T23:32:00.001+08:00

Love jogging today coz i ran for 9.3km

at first i tot i will lose out

coz damm lazy and somemore 1 month nv really jog

and even lao sai before meeting zhikai to jog at stadium

ran for 12 rounds in stadium but my speed is very slow

i always will chiong at some distance but this time round my stomach pain whenver i chiong or ran very fast

hehe

rest awhile

and continue my running route

start from zhikai hse

and half way through saw zikai

and then we ran 1 round to zhikai hse again and so call rest

end up his mum gave us big ang bao!

omg!

and we checking our route distance hehe

slack until 11.30!

the 2 z(h)i kai send me home :)

NAISE ANS SHIOK!

2011-02-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

went to Mr low house early in the morning

meet 9

and we gamble the whole whole day!

at 1st i win alot

endup i and zikai lose like 50 bucks.MORE THAN THAT!

meanwhile we have a farewell for Ivy and Zixin

Ivy going to perth for pharmacy

Zixin going to Adele for dental

sad moments...

hai

2011-02-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

我知道你很难过

2011-02-03T01:05:00.000+08:00

新年快了！！

2011-02-02T23:54:00.007+08:00

Happy 22nd YEARS Aniversary DADDY AND MUMMY!

2011-01-28T15:27:00.011+08:00

after RAD lesson

we had some fun

huiyee brought her poloroid camera and we took quite alot of fun shots

i brought my baby lumix too:)

huiyee with vincent spec

me with vincent spec

Siti with vincent specs

the poloroid pics

after the damm RAD test

we came to kofu

btw i really thanks to andrew for helping me all along for this 2nd year sem 2

he really did help me alot in homeworks etc

without him i cant get high marks and hand in work on time!

andrew and nicholas

i really met alot of great friends in poly

im really very grateful!

2011-01-22T17:59:00.002+08:00

再见了

新加波

2011-01-22T17:58:00.000+08:00

晚上九点

可以看到爸爸了

:):):):)

2011-01-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

ok SWITCH OFF MY PHONE

don't disturb me

i won't pick up any calls

reply any messages

2011-01-20T22:01:00.001+08:00

i always doesnt care about my sick

i very sick but im still laughing loudly and talk like normal

actually i feeling very uncomfortable

i don't know why

from young i always do not like people see the weak side of me

which mean my sick side

and will always say its ok no im fine.ok la i still can tahan

yesterday mummy suddenly tell me : you want to faint then you know you are not alright?

she know i will put a strong front

because

i do not like my sickness cause my day to become sick too

from young until now

i always put a strong front infront of my family

because they are weaker so thats why i need to be strong

i always act as a man in my family to help them of what a man need to do

protect them

scold whoever people who bully them

help tham carry heavy things

even it is seriously heavy

but i will force myself saying i can

especially since daddy gone to Dubai

i cannot sick i cannot be weak i cannot be unhappy or sad

i must be strong cheerful and whatever things to make me happy so that i could help them with all my best

2011-01-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

No cant

i must get well in this 2 days!!

if not i cant fly!

2011-01-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

最近很累很累

感冒咳嗖又来大姨妈

2011-01-16T03:21:00.000+08:00

can you CAN YOU JUST COME BACK FOR ONCE?THE PAIN IS STILL HERE!i cant really...wipe it away...its so difficult...cause me breathless...

Listening to 心动,everytime i hear this song,mimi always float inside my mind.miss the time we play miss the time im hugging you with my arms.

wanted to post this 2 posts at twitter

posted

but end up delete it.

im trying very hard to accept the fact

whenever the agitated feeling came up

it tooks me alot of courages and time to calm myself down

its like a drug addict

very hard to quit

very difficult not to think

and i cant annouce that im having this drug

because the words just cannot come out from my mouth

2011-01-16T02:47:00.000+08:00

greece

the place i wanted to go

because

all the buildings is either blue or white

no more worries over there!

2011-01-16T02:43:00.002+08:00

lavender field

one day i will come here

2011-01-16T02:33:00.000+08:00

6 more days!

its happy

but

everytime of my sturbborness

jie jie and daddy always gonna do alot of things like mad

documents

tickets

time

leave

plans

and i did NOTHING

how i wish mummy will come with us!

2011-01-16T02:31:00.002+08:00

its ok its ok its ok its ok its ok

i've been telling this to myself..

2011-01-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

doesnt show any concern

mummy know today is my concert

and i need to wake up damm early!

but end up i wake up at 7am

and im sure late for class coz i still nit to bath make up prepare everything

and SHE NV WAKES ME UP!

damm pissed off

why?

is it im not really important in your heart?

im so sad and disappointed

2011-01-14T01:21:00.029+08:00

在彩排时

有一度我很想哭

尤其演奏着'inkikayo'(Kpop song)和‘我问天’

这两首我不怎么喜欢的曲目

居然让我的心情转变

听到'inkikayo'就想到你

听到‘我问天’就想到了我的家人

你们知道我真的很需要你们的支持吗？

2011-01-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

these days is really emotional

so much feeling clash at the same time

i was really sad bout people not making the effort TO TRY going to MCO concert to support me

i really do mind this

coz is like we so close and i cant get the support of yours?

its because i need you to be there

and just now

VERY DISAPPOINTED

mummy was like:'today not your concert meh?'

ALRIGHT i already very sad bout my close frens family not gg to my concert.

and still rmb the wrong dates

i really mind all these small stuff.

tiny mini but is small things that touches your heart.

emotional. i really nth to say

maybe i give myself too much expectations.

today caryn told me she only wants a birthday card with notes

i was like suddenly so emotional!

so many feeling came up!

coz is been long people tell me that they like a diy cards instead of presents on their birthdays

same like me la

i like people make the effort to do things for me

like make buiscuits

so DIY cards

or even make the effort to type out

is way too much better than LV bags etc!

i was like shocked when caryn said this to mea

coz people are all materialistic now!

and who will apprecieate DIY stuffs

2011-01-12T03:25:00.001+08:00

friends all celebrating 21st birthday

and is soo sweet to have a boyfriend around!

i want to get a boyfriend before my 21yearsold!!!

2011-01-12T01:24:00.001+08:00

ok i think i kinda let go already

about mimi's death

i can start to admit that she has died

previously i don't even dare to heard mimi and death tgt

like a knife cutting on my heart

now i can admit to friends

like last sat i told jonathan and peiqi

still abit reluctant to say out

but can voice out abit

haha

congrats me?

2011-01-11T01:14:00.000+08:00

OK to all the readers

im opening to all again

thanks for all the encouragement and spent time to read my blog

i really do not know you people will read my blog after i've block

and ask me why i blocked it away etc

2011-01-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

was crazy yesterday to keep pressing the old post looking for my 1st post..

and i was smiling all the way , coz it is so funny to see the old post of yours

and memories keep on running.

Facebook is really a good place to mark the old days

and future how you feel currently .

and now im trying to look for the html coding to view back my previous post to navigate from my blog

YES

found it

and im reading the 1s post in june 2009.

感触良多！

2011-01-08T00:23:00.001+08:00

went to NYP for open house

and miss out my morning MCO practice

and met geri after my help out

I WAN THE WHITE FILE INSIDE GOODIES BAG!!

but i cant get it!!

geri also cant get it

one of a random nice girl

her name is shyra i think

i got to know her just now

when

she came to exchange her tshirts from me

she helping me to get goodlies bag too!!

she really very nice!

she like so sorry i really cant get it

im trying to get it etc

haha

good rite

after that rush down to MSL for pratice

oh god tired ttm!

i am proud of the tshirt!

our team conclude this design etc

nice!

ok recently i was like *POOF*

on my bed

after i got home

and slp like a pig

damm tired!!

2011-01-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

Help out in NYP JAM night open house

was SERIOUSLY HIGH!

know alot of great frens from different schools

took alot of photos but don't know can get those pic from where!

free mac to eat

free nice open house tshirts!

free food

hehe

was a great great experience for me!

but tmro gonna help out again EARLY IN THE MORNING!

2011-01-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

emotional recently omg.

2011-01-02T01:41:00.009+08:00

practice practice and practice!

i love soocheng's photography skills

at glance not really attractive

but when you look again

it contain stories

and she always captured the best moments of me

it doesnt mean that the appearance must look nice

she captured your feeling at that moment too

all the best to soocheng;my daugther

i roughly know that you do not have a great time in poly life

esp in your photography cca

i really do hope you can be a great photographer in the future!

don't worry about anyhing!

JUST DO IT!

2011-01-01T23:11:00.041+08:00

morning went to the market to do some groceries

long time nv help mummy:)

next meet homgging kor kor to ikea

redhill

he treat me drink koi!

yippy

and we went to eat lunch at ikea

meatballs chicken wing potato salad etc

have a awesome delight

took some photos etc

and went down to dhoby ghaut

Finally our zhonghu outing!

chin keong soocheng hongging zhikai me

we went to eat popeye first

and head down to near minds cafe area according our plans

the shop call something like play station

we chose game instead of console

next time WE GONNA PLAY CONSOLE!

coz the peopple there playing look so fun!

like wii game etc d

but its ok

we had seriously lots of fun and shouting when playing card games

is really abit of retarded

hahaha

FUN~

learn alot of new games HOPE WE GO OUT AGAIN NEXT TIME!

our 1st outing on 1.1.2011 year!

next time faiz and ding hung must join us too!

2010-12-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

Joelynne as usual came and look for me at Little Feet

i was telling her i don't wanna work anymore

metally tired after so much year of working and i felt this just recently!

seriously DON'T WANT to work anymore

and 2011 i won't work as much

i told her that

and my boss came

she ask me january schedule

i was like

taking out my schedule

telling her which day free and which day not free

UNKNOWINGLY!

last time

im addicited to woking

but now

im get use of working..

hai..

who can pull me out ??!!

2010-12-29T21:00:00.010+08:00

work today and hg kor kor came look for me

morning meet shushan go work tgt

she at amara hotel im at tanjong pagar exchange

bored~

i want to go Topshop so suddenly

so i msg him coz i saw that he want to look for stripshirts for his endyear party

but end up rejected by him :(

hai

next i ask shushan

shes freee

yayayay!

and then we went to buy Royce chocolate!

i bought champagne choc and she bought dark choc

15 per packet

we tried all the flavours!! HAHA

SO NICE LA!

i want to annouce i love ROYCE chocolates!!

after that we wanted to share with biyu

and play pranks on her

haha

she tot i really cry and even want to come down look for me!

so we faster say the truth!

haha

so we went to vista park to look for her

and had a small chitchat

damm late already and no more bus

so i suggested walk

shushan acc me all the way to msl station there and she walk home

great night with her!

think alot

thinking back

just now at vista park

a cat rub her fur against us

after mimi

i never ever touch a cat again

and it is my first time

shushan saw it from my eyes

haha

i really hope me biyu and shushan can stay forever always!

and BIYU!

2nd accident already! hope everything will turn good ok!

pray for you darling!

2010-12-26T02:58:00.066+08:00

after a long time of discussion finally can meet liangyap to pass him his christmas present!

abit pek cek coz at christmas eve i plan to pass to him as a surprise but fail

on christmas day we already set the date but end up cannot meet

and finally meet him today at bedok and he is late

i don't like people who are late seriously!

but anyway

hope he really like it

and he gave me present too!

was surprise by that!

Shikin 21st Birthday!

a surprise chalet for her

and siwei drove me sophia and joelynne to ECP

goldkist chalet?

haha

and our surprise start the lastest!

12am!

damm hungry after work!

never really buy any present for shikin

but her chalet really cost us a bomb

hope she is happy and everything went smoothly for her

i never sleep for the whole night

and secretly opening the present that ly gave me

hehe

oppps

sophia wake up

the wrapping paper wokes her up

BTW

have FUN lots of lots of fun with caryn shikin yanney joelynne sophia

they all very cute

never ever forget our 1st time chalet!

went mac for breakfast

next drag my feet to work!

2010-12-23T23:14:00.001+08:00

20 Dec 2010 to 31 Dec 2010 work every weekdays at Little Feet tanjong pagar

tue 21.12.2010

Vincent and daryl came and look for me at work! so touch

hehe
mary gave me christmas present!

a laptop bag so touched~

coz it is recently what i wanted and i nv told anyone!

thanks god

i got into IM!! IM SO VERY HAPPY!!!

coz currently im in programming and networking class

is very low chance for me to get into interactive media!

and i got into same with j sop

very happy

just hope we are in the same class:)

wed 22.12.2010
reached Little Feet at 1pm

yay he msg me today

happy :)

like i use to be

so im not regreting to buy that doramon for you

HAHA

coz very ex eh! 43.90!

must thanks to shushan too

she helping me to buy it first cause i really have no time to buy

btw

he also went to IM!

hehe happy for him too

hope we can be same class again next year?

Hongging kor kor came to look for me at work and he went orchard then meet me at commonwealth.

i wanted 20 mins for him and the cold breeze just blew .

im freezing.he acc me train back to wdlds.

meet jon to wgsco.

always feel so great back in WGS! esp CO!!

haha

and ate tangyuan

feel so great

and soocheng came at a later time :)

walk back to cwp with her

hold her hand

and walk one step by one step

saw biyu on my way
happy!!
so long nv saw her
she got alot of troubled
HANG ON THERE!!
ok
dun give up!!

23 Dec 2010

tired
but still ok
recently i have quite enough of sleep
sleep very early too
jog for 30mins only
and kanjiong to meet shushan!
she was like :'u never wipe after u bathe ar?'
hahaa
i was sweating like hell
coz i run to the station
have a great GREAT chat
and
went back with her after work too
seriously everytime i saw her and chat with her
im seriously happy!
i love this friend
i will love her forever

2010-12-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

thanks for the concern i really appreciate that :)

2010-12-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

its hard to let go once i know its coming to christmas , year end

because you won't stop comparing last year and now

almost a year

too fast too fast just too fast

2010-12-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

there he goes again ,sweet talking ,making me wanna believe his promises and make me disappointed again

but i wun fall again

because someone got the higher postition than he do.

2010-12-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

Wherever i am ,wherever i go ,my mind just cannot stop thinking about you.

I just hope to have a happy ending with you

2010-12-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

i don't feel like talking to anyone

go away

just leave me alone

2010-12-17T22:36:00.004+08:00

16 dec 2010

Thur

What happen to you?

saw your twitter ytd night

twit back to you

msg you

ALL NV REPLY!

damm PISSED

coz you reply to other fren instead of me

what is this

maybe im too busybody

:/:/:/:/:/

ok plan to take my fusitsu laptop back

wanted to ask him acc me

but he like so troubled

and never even reply me

so never ask him

nevermind

sophia promised to acc me

so met her at yck

she bought me nacho potato bread that i recomment her

so NICE

thanks! muack!!

long time transfering data to my sis harddisk

meet J coz she was very boring

and came look for me at Funan IT mall

just nice vincent pm me in the morning saying wanted to meet for lunch

so suggested meet at bugis hajilane

so me and j walk all the way to hajilane to meet vincent

shop shop shop

girls shopping!

vincent like so boring la! hahaha

end up he still feel bored

bought chiffon white long sleeves blouse 28bucks only!! WOOHOO

i love it

ans j bought a poka dots navy sleeveless blouse

hehe

vincent went to Plucks

and their ice cream not bad

i ate cheesy strawberry

vincent went back to AMK

and j bought a pants at mango

J went back in the end coz i need to meet my mummy nanny and sis

and meet them at city hall

was hungry and they all acc me eat 'nan hua mian'

shop shop shop

EYE on a bag in mango 99 bucks!

leather d

hai but nv buy :(

I WILL EARN ALOT OF MONEY

AND LOSE WEIGHT!

on my way home
mull over the things that happen this year
and comparing the last year
everything change too fast
was not even well prepared enough
last year christmas happens just like yesterday
mimi was here
daddy was here celebrating with us
but this year is different
totally different
every year
we will chat about grandpa
becoz he died during christmas day
is kinda sad
i saw the little girl inside mummy's heart memorial about grandpa
and
the unbearable woman inside granny's heart missing about grandpa
such a long time
yet short
contradicting huh?
all these things always like a video replaying inside my heart
tears just roll down unknowingly
just hope everything can turn back
so we are all a little prepared
a little hope
mimi i just miss you
daddy i just hope you can have a much more happy life
because you deserve it
i love you all so much
hope don't leave me again
ok?

2010-12-17T22:13:00.004+08:00

13 dec 2010

Mon

maths test omg!

i want to tahnks sophia and joelynne and caryn for acc me study on 9 and 10 dec at south canteen till night :)

teehee

great classmates i have

ok went early to school library north wing to study

everything will be fine!

Thanks mummy and sophia bought me my favourite rise and shine bread
so morning i ate mummy's and lunch cum dinner ate sophia's
thanks so much!

watched despicable me at night!

teehheee

BA BOI BA BOI!

so cute laaaa

14 dec 2010

Tue

early in the morning went to swim!

plan at yck

gt events so cant go

end up went to NYP pool!

was abit shy yea

haha

met roger

and he keep telling me to go back frisbee

hai

i was so sad to reject him

do you know how i feel?

is really unbearable

just long story

dont force me k

swim only for 1h then went to library to study

cant concentrate totally!

keep chitchatting and fool around and modelling haha

walk here and there with jiaqi vincent and huiyee

then

PLAY WITH FANDY!!

was seriously laugh till our jaw can drop

hahaha

haidai haidai~~~

the box etc

and some craps

damm funny!

hahahahaha

cant stop laughing

ok just do some relaxation exercise?

was kinda stress for me

really

he send me a message tell me to jiayou for my test

so happy laaaa

like want to fly to the moon like that

hahaa

hao la

getting to treasure the msg more and more we have now

pity little message

just hope you don't give up okay?

15 dec 2010
Wed

weeee
after RAD test!!
so happy
but i made alot of mistakes:(
hai over liao over liao
went to find sophia at toapayoh survey there
coz she promised me she will acc me to take my incentives at clarke quay
haha
123.50!
woohoo
i can go msia on fri with these money!
hehe

next we went to NEX serangoon new shopping centre
1st time
very big
and shop shop
bought a ring
icing room cheesecake
my leg back and neck very pain!
don't know why
ok went home and restt :)

2010-12-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

11 dec 2010

Sat after mco

went to toapayoh for the survey

and i earn 50 bucks!

happy

nxt meet mummy and nanny at orchard

long time nv shop already!

end up i bought a 79.90 ZARA PANTS

seriously omg

and nearly lose my phone due to fitting this pant

quite like it

but it is ex

so im like comforting myself using the reason of this pant come with a belt so is kinda cheap hahaha

crap

bought xiaobawang

but no appetite

12 dec 2010

Sun

FINALLY I NV WORK!

omg seriously relax!

but have common test on mon and wed

maths and RAD

so meet vincent and huiyee at tanjong pagar

tom and toms cafe to study

and their toast really very nice!

thanks vincent and huiyee

seriously without you 2 i maths like cmi!

and the cute huiyee

acc me and lead us to 'The Medeira'

and stress about leading us the wrong way ahha!

appreciated TOTALLY!

ok but today is debbie 21st birthday party!

and her theme is BEE

means yellow and black will be the topic

i was looking for yellow chiffon dress for almost 6 months

seriously cant find!

and yellow became more and more attracting to me

but end up i bought so many clothings

like uniqlo 39.90 navy blue dress

haha!

wore a black dress to debbie birthday party

was very touched when i saw debbie cry

and i feel like crying too

ok then went back with hognging and sengfong

and saw mummy and nanny :)

thanks hongging kor kor helping me to carry my big bulky heavy bag :)

2010-12-16T09:48:00.000+08:00

what is this?

when im retreating

you gave me hope

when im full of hope

you gave me disappointment

2010-12-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

caryn and sophia acc me study

at south canteen

2010-12-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

ppl singing birthday songs to their friends at south.then...what about my daddy? feel like.....crying now.

i really hope to fly to find my daddy, today saw another vision again.i tot one of the lec is my daddy.i didn't know i miss him that badly..

who sing him birthday songs?who accompany him through this imptt day?who will give him presents?...

how i wish this world have a fairy, who can send him my misses,birthday songs,birthday presents ,birthday cakes ,smiles , laughters ,surprises , pictures and encouragement to him...

is not just misses is miserable!

ARHHHHH!! Hell this cruel world and brought disasters to these cities.and making people so sad and hope all gone.WHAT IS THIS?

Daddy, i'm always here....don't scare k

2010-12-03T13:23:00.001+08:00

hi blog no time no see!

been so busy with projects assignments etc.

hope everything fine for me until i update my next blog

teehee :)

This is my Daddy

2010-11-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

Sunday

21.10.2010

Work

and my family daddy nanny mummy jiejie having buffet Parris at marinasqaure

was very wu nai

earned my commision so what?

after work

went to city hall meet daddy

coz he just wan to see me before his off to plane

and he soo cute la

daddy : u go payalebar and to bishan

me:don't want i just go from city hall using red line

daddy :oh you don't want to acc me( soft until ant can hear only)

yuan lai daddy wanted me to acc him

teehee

daddy always that kind of acting strong in front of everybody

but he so soft hearted

and he was so worried about me gg hm late as recently have so many slashing cases

and keep reminding me to take bus hm instead of walking

and scare i couldn't get to the last train home

send him off till payalebar

saying bye bye from inside of train to outside of train

saw his face

smiling me all his way

and the train started moving

he nv stop waving his hand

he was happy and worried

he seems telling me:

he nv regret to fly pass half of the world from dubai to spore to see our face

for only 2 and a half days

he nv regret tt

i've captured this scene on my head

emotional came

my tears just went around my eye

haiii

why?

god treat my daddy better ok?

i will do anything

i can give up on everything

fri after picking up daddy

and requested to go celebrate J's birth

he looks so unhappy

hai but i still went

and reached hm around 2am

he nv even scold me!!or say a word

he just said : u came back arhhh u want chocolates?

normally he will scold me until i can jump off the building

i love you daddy

2010-11-19T21:18:00.064+08:00

19.11.2010

Fri

Morning have a task from caryn and sophia to give joelynne a surprise

telling her to acc me my 2hrs break

arhh

i just scare that i spoil birthday surprises again

and again

i wasn't wrong

went passed the staircase where caryn and sophia surppose to bring out the birthday cake to surprise j

arhh

and i keep squeezing out the excuses to went back to the place

damm funny

Went to celebrate Joelynne's birthday!

2010-11-17T23:22:00.053+08:00

Jie Jie 21st birthday!

previous night went to tampines to shop for her present!

i dun wan buy her diamonds cause i think diamond no use!

so went to tampines shun bian find biyu

biyu work as kanebo

so buy skincare from her for my sis birthday!

bought bio-essence moiserizer too!

hehe

thanks Joelynne for acc me!

today we went marnina square suntex Raffles city sc etc

to celebrate jie jie bithday.

she love toy eggs

and got herself one eggy on her 21st birthday -.-

she wore my dress! hehe

hope everything go smoothly for her! and don't lie again k

we all know actually

2010-11-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

hi bloggy

hai i asked him to come to my concert

but his ans was:" i think i cant make it"

"sorry"

i asked him y

he said :"couldn't make it "

i said is it coz of db?

he said"ya"

"was quite busy"

i was kinda disappointed

coz he nv make the heart to say "i can TRY to make it?"

" wait i see my schedule , i do not noe tt day have any db anot eh, i check with you another day"

i think he do not really wants to go

suan le baaaaa

2010-11-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

saturday

13.11.2010

MCO in the morning

mr low nv come

kind of tired and not enough slp

so when i reached there i was frustrated

keep tsk tsk hg

haha

den AFTER TT
WENT TO MARINA BARAGE!

WOOHOO

HAPPY

coz i wan to go there long long long time ago

but the weather was kinda bad~~

swear to god tt if it rains i wun go there anymore

thinking back the 1st time wanted to go

with liangyap

BUT IT WAS RAINING LIKE PIG

ruin everything

kns

ok back here
it was drizziling windy and sunny?
not so bad

HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH THEM seriously
caryn and sophia even kena hit by the kite
DAMM FUNNY LA!! hahahah

2010-11-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

the thoughts came

maybe im a little scared?

im like losing bits by bits each day pass by

2010-11-11T02:39:00.000+08:00

nose bleed today! 1st time

i was damm scared

i was peeing and when i stand up

my nose suddenly have some flows

i tot was my pi ti

but i find it weird coz it running very fast

den i saw some blood stain on my shirt and pants

and i rub my nose

AND MY FINNGER ALL BLOOD

i was shivering:(

and quickly use the tap water to rinse my nose

and the whole sink is with red water

i feel like crying

the 1st person i thought of is sophia and j

i hope they can come and help me

but i nv brought my hp from class

seriously scare

den i went back to class and tell andrew

he was like" u saw who ,nose bleed?"

i gave him a lame face

den my nose bleed stopped

nicholas saw and asked me

and he msg to liangyap!!

liangyap: you okay)):

i am very happy:):)

coz he cares

hai

should i continue to like you or wat

the likes is getting deeper and deeper.!!

OMG

HELP ME!

den i was feeling depressed and weak for the pass few hours and went back home